Living Life, Loving It!

i am finally worth a hundred dollars! feels good to earn your own money.. im going to use it to pay for my OJT enrollment.. finally, i gave done something that’s worth to be proud of, something that i myslef alone have accomplished. yahoo!

im proud of my accomplishment. really, this blogging thing has done caused me tremendous things. it has helped me in so many ways. so to the inventor of "blogging", thank you!  

HAPPY 2years and 4months together..

ARF2.. SOBRA..

i’m happy! deliriously happy! even the weather did not dampen my mood..

keep being like what you are now hon and i’ll promise i’ll be a good girl.. i’ll keep my side of the bargain.. promise promise promise..  

he can be the best, but he can also be worst. one moment you’ll feel like a princess, showered with so much love and attention, the next you’ll feel like a pauper, unimportant and neglected. nothing’s perfect in this world, i’ve long known that.. but you can’t help but simply wish that things weren’t this complicated, that when you love each other you’ll just be happy.. love can’t be simplified ‘coz it’s the most complicated thing on earth. you thought you’re happy, the next time sad.. whay can’t it be happy all the time?

hey, in case you haven’t noticed, you’ve had me completely blown away..  

i’ve been completely blogless lately.. i’ve no one to blame but my busy-ness in school.. got loads to do but so little time.. and studies comes first (ayt mom?).. hehe..

there’s this one major rant that i have: my talk ‘n text sim hanged! out of nowhere, it just stopped receiving messages! i was baffled the other night thinking why i haven’t received kahit one text man lang.. the next thing i knew, sira na pala.. grrr! i was so enraged.. i mean, what the hell happened? it was ok for the past months that i’ve bee using it but now it’s crazed.. i had no choice but to buy a new sim, this time a SMART BUDDY sim.. the saleslady told me that it’s less prone to "hanging" so it was the one that i brought.. i won’t use TNT sim ever again! i had gone through a lot of trouble because of it.. damages has been done.. really..

i’ve just finished doing my elective project and UIC server is down.. so what’s wrong this time? i decided to pass my time by blogging na lang.. atleast here i can pour all my rantings..

oh God, i miss him so.. i really wish this sem would be over so i can go home na.. 

my sim got busted! it was one hell of an annoying day! grrr…

i haven’t gone to church this day.. guilty-ness.. promise God, bawi ko next time..

adem’s got a new phone already! good for us.. thanks hon kay wala ka nagpabaya..

i think for the nth time, my boyfriend has lost AGAIN his cellphone.. grrr! too bad for us ‘coz we’re LDR and we depend only in cellphones as the fastest way of communication.. really grrrr!!

i think you should really be careful next time hon, dili na unta magdinanghag bah, awa karon.. 

fate found it’s way to whip the life out of me.. i wanted so much to be hugged right now, to be offered a gentle hand, to be assured that everything’s gonna be fine and to be told that everything’s gonna be brigter in the morning..

i miss you so much hon.. you’re the only drug who can take all these pains and forebodings away..

I WANTED TO CRY BUT NO TEARS WON’T FALL ANYMORE. I WANTED TO SHOUT AT THE TOP OF MY LUNGS BUT NO VOICE WON’T COME OUT. I WANNA RUN WILD BUT MY LEGS ARE TOO WEAK TO MOVE.

I’M FRAIL. I’M WEAK. I’M VULNERABLE. I’M HURT. I’M WOUNDED.

IT’S AS IF I’M STABBED SO MANY TIMES. I HATE PAIN, I RESIST IT, I CONDEMN IT. BUT IT’S WHAT’S TEARING ME APART RIGHT NOW.

BUT I’M ASSURED OF THE FACT THAT NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, I KNOW I HAVE MY FAMILY AND MY LOVED ONES. THEY WON’T TURN ME DOWN LIKE OTHERS DID. I KNOW..